We finally received the psych eval from the doctor who did the examination. It is as we thought it would be, a recommendation to move forward with a stimulator trial for Dennis. We knew he would get the recommendation for this, its just been a long time to get back to this point again. He had his doctor appointment this last week and she was excited that he had finally gotten it done. So as soon as the insurance company gets it and it gets approved we can move to the next step, getting the referral approved for the neurosurgeon.
We are having a really difficult time lately. The doctor said in the evaluation that his depression has gotten far worse and its only going to continue to get worse the more time that goes by. Our car broke down again. Im fighting depression as well. It just seems like every time we turn around we get knocked down. I dont know how more I can handle, much less how much more Dennis can handle. Like the doctor said in the evaluation, he has no enjoyment from life anymore. He is cut off from any kind of social aspect because he cant handle going anywhere and no one, and I mean NO ONE, comes to visit Dennis. Not even his family. Thats sad. Its hard to deal with. Its hard for me to watch him hurt. What's really sad is that my parents who live 1200 miles away seem to love him even more than I do. My mom calls Dennis "her son" and she means it. She cries for him, she talks to him on the phone, she tries to encourage him, listens to him, she cares such a great deal for him. Im thankful that Dennis and her have a good relationship and they love each other as a mother and son. Well, its almost 9:30 at night, its starting to snow and I have to drive to where my car is broke down at and try to charge it up and wait for his dad to get there, somewhere around 10:00. Wish me luck.
Sorry for going on the way I have, I have no friends except Zach and Dennis and no one to talk to or do things with so I got carried away. I dont even have any followers on this blog, so I guess it doesnt matter if I rant or not lol I hope everyone has a safe uneventful night.
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